- The LORD makes firm the steps of the one who delights in Him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with His hand. Psalm 37:23-24.
- My frame was not hidden from You when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in Your book before one of them came to be. Psalm 139:15-16.
- In His heart a man plans His course but the Lord determines His steps (Proverbs 16:9)
I found myself at the foot of what seemed like a really large mountain. I had to think and think hard about my next move. Decisions sometimes come with consequences we’d rather not face. Decisions, decisions, decisions … we don’t always like to make them, but we often find that we must. Some decisions are very hard to make but if we decide not to decide, we’ve already decided!
I felt that God was guiding my life along a specific path. At the beginning, I was hopeful and excited. As the days wore on and reality took roots, I started to have second thoughts but I had already committed and there was no backing out! Thankfully, God sent me encouragement and support through wonderful friends and family.
There was a time in my life when I would have looked back at the options I had and the decisions I had made. I would look back at the memories and wonder what might have happened had I moved in one direction instead of another. I would second-guess the path I had taken and beat myself up thinking I should have done differently. He opened my eyes to the reality of who He is and the fact that He does not make mistakes. He drew me to His word and reminded me of these three passages in Scripture: all my days were ordained before one of them came to be; the steps of a righteous man are ordered by God and even though I make plans in my heart, He determines my steps.
I choose to believe that my steps are ordered by the Lord and that He is fully in control of my life. I may make mistakes but He does not and I choose to believe that He can redeem me from whatever ill I may have experienced as a result of poor decision-making. I refuse to live in the land of ‘what-ifs’. I have chosen to trust Him and move forward. I will look at what lies ahead of me – a future with hope (Jeremiah 29:11). I will look at what He has planned for me – a new thing! … Rivers in the barren places! (Isaiah 43:19). I will not wonder about what I left behind. I will not ask “Why were the old days better than these?…” (Ecclesiastes 7:10). My circumstances may change over time but God remains the same. “For I am certain of this very thing, that He by whom the good work was started in you will make it complete till the day of Jesus Christ” (Philippians 1:6)
The decisions you made may have had far-reaching consequences. [I am not in any way suggesting that you ‘forget about them’ and pretend they never happened. I am suggesting that you place them in His hands and ask Him to guide you through dealing with them]. Perhaps these decisions have affected others… maybe someone you know needs to hear your heart today… maybe this could be a nudge from Him reminding you of the steps to be taken. Maybe this is the beginning of a new thing… maybe today is the day you walk away from days, weeks, months or years of wondering whether you did all you could have or should have done. I pray that His peace will be yours today as you contemplate the next steps.
One blogging pal Linda Kruschke, through her Needlepoint Tapestry post, reinforced the fact that there is purpose in every relationship. Another blogging Pal, Theresa Moore, wrote about how God searches, knows and guides us. All life comes from God. The fact that we are here this moment is a testimony of His goodness. Not one person who has crossed our paths came by accident. He does not make mistakes. We get to decide if we allow Him to lead.
Father, I am thankful that You brought confirmation of Your desire for my life. Please forgive me for the moments I doubted – it’s not always easy to follow ‘blindly’ but I choose to believe that You have my best interest at heart and that ‘You order the steps of the righteous’. I have made mistakes in my life … big mistakes that may have had terrible consequences had it not been for Your hand upon me. I have not escaped without scars but Your love has reached deeper and farther than I could ever imagine and You are bringing me healing. If there’s anything in my life that You need to work through, I lay it all before You now. I ask that You would sweep through every corner of my heart and that You would show me the steps I should take to deal with any ‘unfinished business’. I can sweep under the rug as much as I want to … You’re already under that rug and You know ALL things! 🙂 I choose to trust You with all my heart . I will not lean on my own understanding (Proverbs 3:5). Please help me to work through the things that need to be worked through as You direct my steps. I cannot change my history but I have decided that it will not define me. Thank You for guiding me through this process. I give You all the glory! Amen
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